10/11 Columbus Day.... any parades ?

My lips are all swollen-another rash. Nonna Josie's comin over today. She made baked apples yesterday. I used to think my life wasn't interesting enough to put online. What the hell was I thinking with all the nonsense on Facebook and everything else. Well now I could care less who reads this, because I'm doing this for me and whoever feels me say I lol. I love Ghostface Killah. Aunt Mariann (might've caught her meatballs on the "jersey shore") made potatoes with string-beans the way i love them yesterday-w little oil and black pepper....

I mean who cares if what I write on hear aint organized? I just gotta let it out; u know? what does it matter how I used semi-colons.... I'm writing no? This blog represents my mind that goes in a million directions at once from when I wake up, to when I keel over at 10:30 Pm which was considered unheard for me 2 years back... u know back when I used to binge (i see u going "there it is...the reformed addict shit lol.) now u see a reason for my crazy mentality... at least that's what u think. But the truth is, I just opened my eyes is all. I see the world for myself and no one else...well sometimes I screw up and try hard to please others. But don't we all? cuz we love the people we love a lot.

Sometimes I feel like running away, which always feels wrong during or afterward the feeling comes along. Of course I couldn't do it... I just thought of the bag i packed when I was maybe 5 with the kids guide to NYC my mother bought for me which I still got and carry along. It's just something your overcoming emotions bring u to sometimes. But my weakness is love...and what happens is my head to starts to spin and I start to become hysterical. I cant help it, and still i try to maintain my emotions ...its a process... aha Billy Crystal, Analyze That : I'm grieving, it's a process." Christopher Columbus... u know they got no official portraits of him. "Disgrazziate gente americane.." Quote my father/Uncle Joe/Me.